I've decided to finally come clean with the matter that has come to the forefront of my life and represents a turning point in my journey known as life.
Some time ago, I was diagnosed with Gender Identity Dysphoria. In layman's terms, I'm a woman trapped in a man's body. I've been living in denial for most of my life, trying to fit into what society deems fit for someone with a male body. People who know me personally would say I'm weird, kind, compassionate and not like most other men. They were right. I'm not like most other men. My heart isn't of a man; it never was.
As part of my treatment for my disorder, I've made the decision to live my life as the gender I identify with. I've already taken the steps needed and am both excited and terrified about what lies ahead for me. As of late, everyone I know with the exception of the woman I love and had been married to for 14 years has been supportive, understanding and accepting of who I really am. I didn't choose to want to be a woman. I was always a woman and that's what I wish to remain for the rest of my life.
Some of my friends, whom I haven't seen for years, will probably be very surprised at how I look, even now. But I feel much more confident in myself, I love how I look and am anxiously awaiting the day I shed my male disguise and former identity for good.
Many of my close friends and readers of my fanfiction already know about my true identity. For those of you for whom I hadn't disclosed this personally; please don't take offense. I'm only human.
My name is Rebecca Ann Heineman and I'm a transgendered woman. I'm glad to make your acquaintance.
"Burger" Becky Heineman
Software Engineer III
Electronic Arts Los Angeles
- Current Mood:
anxious
Comments
see? even Sailor Luna welcomes you! ^_^
i hope youll find happiness
The only caution I can say is that I hope it isn't a reaction to your recent breakup. If you felt this way all along, then great.If you feel this way because you are depressed than think about it for a while and make the decisions later. I think just about everyone wishes you the best.You have a wealth of friends that you may never meet...
Be well, be happy, and don't let the bastards grind you down.
^_^
--Steffan
おめでとうございます、ベキ-ちゃん。 おだいじに と がんばってください!!
Best wishes,
Yrael
Hi Becky,
I think it is great that you can finally come to accept your true self!!! You have many friends and I hope you the best.
Beth
I have nothing but admiration for that
I wish you all the best for the future and hope this helps you find the happiness that seems to hav been lacking in your life (from reading your LJ)
Now I have something approximating a computer and good internet access, I'm likely to be reading your LJ a lot more, and joining the Temple.
I'm glad you've discovered what will fulfill your life.
Life is nothing if we live it only in suffering.
Good luck with everything!
I wish you all the luck in the world.
Hmmm, and now I know why your stories resonated so well with me. Good luck on the transition.
Babs_yerunkle@hotmail.com
I hope your recent choices and realizations don't hurt you and those around you too much and that you have a good life ahead of you. Can't say I understand what you are going through, but I can say I liked your Sailor Ranko writings and appreciate your involvement in porting EV: NOVA to PC.
I think that your stories of Sailor Ranko are one of the things that has recently inspiried me to take up writing more seriously myslef as I am considering becoming an English major and becoming a fiction writer and school teacher. For that I think you.