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A new day in a new life

It's been a long time coming, and I've had to endure a lot of hardships to get where I am today. My life for the past few years has been a roller coaster of emotions, from euphoric joy to utter dismal depression. All along this journey, I've had several close friends and my wonderful children who have given me unconditional love and support for everything that I've gone through.

I've decided to finally come clean with the matter that has come to the forefront of my life and represents a turning point in my journey known as life.

Some time ago, I was diagnosed with Gender Identity Dysphoria. In layman's terms, I'm a woman trapped in a man's body. I've been living in denial for most of my life, trying to fit into what society deems fit for someone with a male body. People who know me personally would say I'm weird, kind, compassionate and not like most other men. They were right. I'm not like most other men. My heart isn't of a man; it never was.

As part of my treatment for my disorder, I've made the decision to live my life as the gender I identify with. I've already taken the steps needed and am both excited and terrified about what lies ahead for me. As of late, everyone I know with the exception of the woman I love and had been married to for 14 years has been supportive, understanding and accepting of who I really am. I didn't choose to want to be a woman. I was always a woman and that's what I wish to remain for the rest of my life.

Some of my friends, whom I haven't seen for years, will probably be very surprised at how I look, even now. But I feel much more confident in myself, I love how I look and am anxiously awaiting the day I shed my male disguise and former identity for good.

Many of my close friends and readers of my fanfiction already know about my true identity. For those of you for whom I hadn't disclosed this personally; please don't take offense. I'm only human.

My name is Rebecca Ann Heineman and I'm a transgendered woman. I'm glad to make your acquaintance.

"Burger" Becky Heineman
Software Engineer III
Electronic Arts Los Angeles


Mar. 30th, 2005 09:46 am (UTC)
I can't say I've posted much in your LJ, if at all actually. I've read quite a bit of your fic though, and my boyfriend posts quite a bit (Calseris).
Now I have something approximating a computer and good internet access, I'm likely to be reading your LJ a lot more, and joining the Temple.

I'm glad you've discovered what will fulfill your life.
Life is nothing if we live it only in suffering.

Good luck with everything!